From my archives

I wrote this in the late 1970s--1977 or 1978--and it shows something of my growth in God's grace between 1967 and then.

From Fear to Grace
I have discovered a new fear: fear of being in His will. Fear? Because of the ramifications, implications, painful joys, joyful agonies, and anticipation of the One who is love, and of love: eternal yet intersecting and making clear the here and now, every here and every now.
I must expand by and in grace lest I burst with realized joy of the immense certainty and comfortability of God is Love.
"That I may know HIM"
At times I want to burst, for I am so small and He is so great. His love is His glory.
I am destroyed (pride ego) and defined (in His image, in His Spirit, in His body, in His bride) by the LORD Himself--known. Love: never past tense--all is simultaneous to Him--praise His Name!
How He loves to hold a child, to teach it to walk and to be honest, to trust not blindly (blind faith is slavery and we have not been called slaves but friends) but with the Spirit enlightened and enlarged intelligence.
For me, faith is not a leap in the dark, emotional and irrational. It is at first in the responsive affirmation of the Lordship of Christ a leap from the dark. It is thereafter exercised in thoughtful, studied, deliberate, prayerful response to the Holy Spirit, searching the Scriptures.